Here is Emma's current favorite song. She sings it while in the car, playing at home and in bed, when she's supposed to be asleep.
It's famous, it's the every popular "Row, row, row your boat".
Here's her version:
Row, row, row da boat
gentee down a tream
Mary a, Mary a, Mary a, Mary a
Life's a butter beam.
She makes my life a butter beam:)
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Monday, March 7, 2011
That blessed sound
I had my doctor appointment today and heard the baby's heartbeat. What a relief and joy to hear that fast thumping! The doctor was pleased with it and with how the pregnancy is progressing. I don't go back for four more weeks and will be 17 weeks at my next appt. Here's to a happy second trimester.
Thanks to everyone who has been, and continues to pray for me and this baby.
Thanks to everyone who has been, and continues to pray for me and this baby.
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Some night-time reading
This one is for you Amanda, nothing like having something to read when up with your baby:)
It's been a heavy day. I saw some friends today and it was so fun to see them but one of them is fighting cancer. It's hard to watch her struggle and be in pain and have to fight so hard for basic things that I take for granted every day. I can get up in the morning and walk to the bathroom and my legs don't fail me. I can work and play and dream about my future. It feels unfair, as cancer always is I'm sure. I am not saying that God is unfair, just that I don't understand.
As part of making my life and faith real this time, I am and have been, processing and working on myself until I can get to the point where I can say and believe (that's the big/harder part) that God is good- all the time.
He doesn't feel good all the time, but I know feelings lie and that's a big fat one. Because God IS good. Scripture says so, so I have to believe that. I want to, and I am working my way there. My head believes this, but my heart heeds to emotions at times. Satan finds my emotions unstable and has a hayday. He twists and turns things until I am in the middle of believing the lie that God is only good when it feels like He is good.
Lie Lie Lie.
The truth is:
My marriage is good- God is good.
My marriage struggles- God is good.
The baby died- God is good.
The baby lived- God is good.
I am not fighting cancer- God is good.
She is fighting cancer- God is good.
I know the key is that God is good. His character is good. Circumstances aren't always good. He allows those bad circumstances though and that's where I have to work through all the feelings that come with that.
Today felt that way.
It's been a heavy day. I saw some friends today and it was so fun to see them but one of them is fighting cancer. It's hard to watch her struggle and be in pain and have to fight so hard for basic things that I take for granted every day. I can get up in the morning and walk to the bathroom and my legs don't fail me. I can work and play and dream about my future. It feels unfair, as cancer always is I'm sure. I am not saying that God is unfair, just that I don't understand.
As part of making my life and faith real this time, I am and have been, processing and working on myself until I can get to the point where I can say and believe (that's the big/harder part) that God is good- all the time.
He doesn't feel good all the time, but I know feelings lie and that's a big fat one. Because God IS good. Scripture says so, so I have to believe that. I want to, and I am working my way there. My head believes this, but my heart heeds to emotions at times. Satan finds my emotions unstable and has a hayday. He twists and turns things until I am in the middle of believing the lie that God is only good when it feels like He is good.
Lie Lie Lie.
The truth is:
My marriage is good- God is good.
My marriage struggles- God is good.
The baby died- God is good.
The baby lived- God is good.
I am not fighting cancer- God is good.
She is fighting cancer- God is good.
I know the key is that God is good. His character is good. Circumstances aren't always good. He allows those bad circumstances though and that's where I have to work through all the feelings that come with that.
Today felt that way.
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Think "baby" too!
After my last post my best friend reminded me that I never officially shared the news that I'm pregnant!
I am due Sept 15 but will have a scheduled C-section at least one week early. So we are anticipating a sweet bundle the first week-ish of Sept.
So far everything is going along fabulously, but I'll rest easier after my 13 week appt on an already famous day (Jen:)) March 7th.
I am due Sept 15 but will have a scheduled C-section at least one week early. So we are anticipating a sweet bundle the first week-ish of Sept.
So far everything is going along fabulously, but I'll rest easier after my 13 week appt on an already famous day (Jen:)) March 7th.
Friday, February 18, 2011
Think Spring
Winter has had it's day and then some. I am so very very ready for spring!
This winter has felt a little longer than some. Jon's quite busy and stressed with his schooling. He just finished another round of clinicals today and had a day long final. He's set to start a new rotation on Monday. Only 4 months left to go!
Emma is great. She is a busy bee and loves to play everything we have in the house. I mean that very literally! By bath time each night she has managed to pull out every toy and game that we have and they are strewn about the house. She is ready for spring too though. She and I shoveled snow the other day and I gave her a sand box shovel which she used to play in the snow while I chipped away at the snow and ice on our driveway.
Jarrah is ready for spring. She is a weather connoisseur - what that really means is that she refuses to poop or pee if the ground is icy, it's too windy or it's bitter cold. I have been very impressed at how long she will actually hold it before eventually giving in and going potty outside. (Once on the sidewalk a couple weeks ago.)
I'm ready for spring. I get the blues if I don't see some sort of sunshine and get some fresh air. The last two days I have cracked the living room window. I feel more human and my spirits are lifted when I smell the outside and when I feel the sunshine on my face.
Here are some other fun family facts:
1. Emma ate her dinner last night using toy tweezers.
2. I look forward to watching Wheel of Fortune every night.
3. Emma can go potty mostly by herself now.
4. I have managed to make it to 10 1/2 weeks pregnant without puking once!
5. Jon started listening to books on CD. It makes his daily 2 hr commute fly by.
6. None of my regular jeans or dress pants fit anymore. I'm even out of my "fat pants". I see a trip to the maternity store in my future.
7. Only 3 more weeks until I can hopefully relax a bit about keeping this pregnancy.
8. I am half done with tax season!
9. I am going to start preparing for another card party this spring.
10. In the last 3 weeks I have separately forgotten to pack Emma's underwear, shoes, and socks. Additionally, I have forgotten to brush my own teeth, wash my hair (I only got it wet and forgot to actually use shampoo) and wore my (clean) underwear inside out. Believe me when I say I do take care to clean and groom my family. My memory just isn't on speaking terms with me every day.
This winter has felt a little longer than some. Jon's quite busy and stressed with his schooling. He just finished another round of clinicals today and had a day long final. He's set to start a new rotation on Monday. Only 4 months left to go!
Emma is great. She is a busy bee and loves to play everything we have in the house. I mean that very literally! By bath time each night she has managed to pull out every toy and game that we have and they are strewn about the house. She is ready for spring too though. She and I shoveled snow the other day and I gave her a sand box shovel which she used to play in the snow while I chipped away at the snow and ice on our driveway.
Jarrah is ready for spring. She is a weather connoisseur - what that really means is that she refuses to poop or pee if the ground is icy, it's too windy or it's bitter cold. I have been very impressed at how long she will actually hold it before eventually giving in and going potty outside. (Once on the sidewalk a couple weeks ago.)
I'm ready for spring. I get the blues if I don't see some sort of sunshine and get some fresh air. The last two days I have cracked the living room window. I feel more human and my spirits are lifted when I smell the outside and when I feel the sunshine on my face.
Here are some other fun family facts:
1. Emma ate her dinner last night using toy tweezers.
2. I look forward to watching Wheel of Fortune every night.
3. Emma can go potty mostly by herself now.
4. I have managed to make it to 10 1/2 weeks pregnant without puking once!
5. Jon started listening to books on CD. It makes his daily 2 hr commute fly by.
6. None of my regular jeans or dress pants fit anymore. I'm even out of my "fat pants". I see a trip to the maternity store in my future.
7. Only 3 more weeks until I can hopefully relax a bit about keeping this pregnancy.
8. I am half done with tax season!
9. I am going to start preparing for another card party this spring.
10. In the last 3 weeks I have separately forgotten to pack Emma's underwear, shoes, and socks. Additionally, I have forgotten to brush my own teeth, wash my hair (I only got it wet and forgot to actually use shampoo) and wore my (clean) underwear inside out. Believe me when I say I do take care to clean and groom my family. My memory just isn't on speaking terms with me every day.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Using devotions as a horoscope
I over analyze things.
Often, unfortunately, this includes spiritual things. God is patient with me and apparently is showing me when I do this so that I can change my behavior.
To that end, I realized on Friday that I have been using my devotional as a horoscope. When I look at my devotional for the day I read into it what I suspect my challenges will be for that day. For example, if the title of my devotions says "How to trust God thru disappointment" I assume that means I will face a tough day filled with disappointments and with a heavy sigh, read the devotion and "buck up" to face whatever is coming my way. I even look ahead in my devotional and get anxious if I read a challenging title.
Now I'm quite positive that this is EXACTLY what God wants me to get out of my devotions.
Seriously, I am certain that God wants to stretch me and challenge me so that I draw closer to Him, not so that I will anticipate what's ahead but that I can trust Him to make me more like Him no matter what He brings my way- good or bad.
Anyone else find themselves using devotions as a horoscope?
Often, unfortunately, this includes spiritual things. God is patient with me and apparently is showing me when I do this so that I can change my behavior.
To that end, I realized on Friday that I have been using my devotional as a horoscope. When I look at my devotional for the day I read into it what I suspect my challenges will be for that day. For example, if the title of my devotions says "How to trust God thru disappointment" I assume that means I will face a tough day filled with disappointments and with a heavy sigh, read the devotion and "buck up" to face whatever is coming my way. I even look ahead in my devotional and get anxious if I read a challenging title.
Now I'm quite positive that this is EXACTLY what God wants me to get out of my devotions.
Seriously, I am certain that God wants to stretch me and challenge me so that I draw closer to Him, not so that I will anticipate what's ahead but that I can trust Him to make me more like Him no matter what He brings my way- good or bad.
Anyone else find themselves using devotions as a horoscope?
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Fun House
Our house is turning into a fun house! Meg and Sy loaned us their rollercoaster. Emma loves it! It does take up some space though. Between that and the slide, the keyboard she got for Christmas and all the babydoll strollers I feel like Toys R Us exploded in our living room.
I wouldn't want it any other way.
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