I just love Emma's hair in this picture.
Can you tell I was between her and the TV while she was watching Clifford?
Friday, August 5, 2011
The perfect "do"
I just love Emma's hair in this picture.
Can you tell I was between her and the TV while she was watching Clifford?
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Praying for change
I don't want to stay stagnant.
I want to be more like Christ.
I even know what God wants me to change in order to make those things happen.
God wants me to trust Him more, be more patient and less selfish. I want those things very much. However, I am afraid to ask God to do what He wants in order to make me change. I'm afraid that He will bring trials into my life that I am not ready to accept or deal with. I am afraid He will take things and people from me in order to teach me those lessons. I fear He will deal with me harshly and that He will think (or know) that is the only way to make me change.
To be real... I fear God will give me an unhealthy baby in order to teach me how to trust Him more. I fear God will give me a special needs child in order to teach me patience. I fear God will allow Greyson to be disabled in order to teach me how to be less selfish. It seems that's a slam-dunk way for God to teach me all of the lessons He is prompting me to learn.
So I'm afraid to learn them. I'm afraid that the good things God has me are "good" in the eternal sense, however I will have to learn to accept them as good in my human-ness.
It sounds very immature spiritually to say that God would only choose one way to teach me how to change. But these days (truthfully, these years) my fears lead the way to most of my opinions and thoughts. I don't like that about myself and feel very ungrateful for the incredible blessings that God has given to me.
I don't want to be nervous for the next four weeks until Greyson is born and THEN decide whether to trust God or not. I want to be faithful and strong enough to trust NOW. I want to accept God's ways NOW, before I know what they are. I want to mature in my spiritual life. I want to trust that God will do what is best for His plan and that He will teach me in the best way for me to learn...and I want to be ok with that!
So I'm praying for change. I'm praying for me to change and for that to start right now amidst my fears and uncertainties.
I want to be more like Christ.
I even know what God wants me to change in order to make those things happen.
God wants me to trust Him more, be more patient and less selfish. I want those things very much. However, I am afraid to ask God to do what He wants in order to make me change. I'm afraid that He will bring trials into my life that I am not ready to accept or deal with. I am afraid He will take things and people from me in order to teach me those lessons. I fear He will deal with me harshly and that He will think (or know) that is the only way to make me change.
To be real... I fear God will give me an unhealthy baby in order to teach me how to trust Him more. I fear God will give me a special needs child in order to teach me patience. I fear God will allow Greyson to be disabled in order to teach me how to be less selfish. It seems that's a slam-dunk way for God to teach me all of the lessons He is prompting me to learn.
So I'm afraid to learn them. I'm afraid that the good things God has me are "good" in the eternal sense, however I will have to learn to accept them as good in my human-ness.
It sounds very immature spiritually to say that God would only choose one way to teach me how to change. But these days (truthfully, these years) my fears lead the way to most of my opinions and thoughts. I don't like that about myself and feel very ungrateful for the incredible blessings that God has given to me.
I don't want to be nervous for the next four weeks until Greyson is born and THEN decide whether to trust God or not. I want to be faithful and strong enough to trust NOW. I want to accept God's ways NOW, before I know what they are. I want to mature in my spiritual life. I want to trust that God will do what is best for His plan and that He will teach me in the best way for me to learn...and I want to be ok with that!
So I'm praying for change. I'm praying for me to change and for that to start right now amidst my fears and uncertainties.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Growth
I went to my Akron doctor today and had a "growth check" for Greyson. He is 4 pounds and 1 oz. I'm 33 weeks along now and everything is looking right on track! Praise the Lord!!!
I saw the Physician's Assistant, whom I love! She is very patient, calming and knowledgeable. The ultrasound tech was very nice too. He is in the 33 percentile now and the doctor (who looked at the measurements but I didn't actually meet with him) was pleased with all the measurements.
My blood pressure was great and I am feeling good. So we went ahead and schedule my c-section with the hospital and my doctor. At this point we have no reason to think I won't make it to my c-section date. It's September 9th at 12:30. Jon and I need to be there two hours early. The grandma's want to go up at that time too. We are going to take Emma to her aunt and uncle's house and they will bring Emma over once the baby is here.
I'm getting very excited to make all the plans and to get things done and organized. I have made three lists: "to do", "to buy" and "to pack".
I still have 6 weeks but am getting very excited and hopeful.
I am also still having to practice trusting God for Greyson's health. Over and over I find myself falling back into fear. I repent and try to practice trusting. God is so patient with me. I am so thankful.
I saw the Physician's Assistant, whom I love! She is very patient, calming and knowledgeable. The ultrasound tech was very nice too. He is in the 33 percentile now and the doctor (who looked at the measurements but I didn't actually meet with him) was pleased with all the measurements.
My blood pressure was great and I am feeling good. So we went ahead and schedule my c-section with the hospital and my doctor. At this point we have no reason to think I won't make it to my c-section date. It's September 9th at 12:30. Jon and I need to be there two hours early. The grandma's want to go up at that time too. We are going to take Emma to her aunt and uncle's house and they will bring Emma over once the baby is here.
I'm getting very excited to make all the plans and to get things done and organized. I have made three lists: "to do", "to buy" and "to pack".
I still have 6 weeks but am getting very excited and hopeful.
I am also still having to practice trusting God for Greyson's health. Over and over I find myself falling back into fear. I repent and try to practice trusting. God is so patient with me. I am so thankful.
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Concern for Miss Muffet
Emma and I were driving home today while listening to her "toddler favorites" CD.
After hearing "Little Miss Muffet" Emma asked me the following:
Emma: Momma, what's this song about?
Me: Miss Muffet was eating her breakfast and a spider came along and scared her away.
Emma: Did the spider eat her breakfast?
Me: probably not. Spiders eat bugs.
Emma: Why did he scare Miss Muffet?
Me: She must not like spiders.
Emma: Why did she have a spider in her house?
Me: She didn't. She was eating her breakfast outside.
Emma: Did Miss Muffet run into the woods?
Me: Sure
Emma (full of concern): Will she get into poison ivy???
Who knew Little Miss Muffet was such a deep and philisophical song!?
After hearing "Little Miss Muffet" Emma asked me the following:
Emma: Momma, what's this song about?
Me: Miss Muffet was eating her breakfast and a spider came along and scared her away.
Emma: Did the spider eat her breakfast?
Me: probably not. Spiders eat bugs.
Emma: Why did he scare Miss Muffet?
Me: She must not like spiders.
Emma: Why did she have a spider in her house?
Me: She didn't. She was eating her breakfast outside.
Emma: Did Miss Muffet run into the woods?
Me: Sure
Emma (full of concern): Will she get into poison ivy???
Who knew Little Miss Muffet was such a deep and philisophical song!?
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Hi-ho, hi-ho it's off to work I go
Jon started his job this week. I hear you cheering! Wait, I think that's our bank account cheering at the sound of an incoming paycheck:)
Truly, we are so very thankful for his job. He had orientation on Monday and Tuesday and found out that his training will be about 8-12 weeks long. During that training period he will be working first shift.
He has been very positive and hopeful about this job and we are so glad the Lord blessed him with it so quickly. Jon will hopefully be transitioned fairly well before the baby gets here and we enter another transition. The other positive thing is that Jon will be home nights until after the baby is born. I had a little worry that I might go into labor some night and he'd be at work. Not to worry about that now. It's just one of the countless ways the Lord is paving the path for us. He has it all worked out and I just need to practice trusting.
I read this verse this morning and loved it... and I was challenged by it too
Luke 1:45
Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill his promises to her!
Truly, we are so very thankful for his job. He had orientation on Monday and Tuesday and found out that his training will be about 8-12 weeks long. During that training period he will be working first shift.
He has been very positive and hopeful about this job and we are so glad the Lord blessed him with it so quickly. Jon will hopefully be transitioned fairly well before the baby gets here and we enter another transition. The other positive thing is that Jon will be home nights until after the baby is born. I had a little worry that I might go into labor some night and he'd be at work. Not to worry about that now. It's just one of the countless ways the Lord is paving the path for us. He has it all worked out and I just need to practice trusting.
I read this verse this morning and loved it... and I was challenged by it too
Luke 1:45
Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill his promises to her!
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Word of the day
The word of the day is....
PASS !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yep! That's the word Jon saw after finishing his registry test today.
Praise the Lord!
We are thankful to the Lord for countless reasons. But today that word is our favorite reason to be thankful.
PASS !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yep! That's the word Jon saw after finishing his registry test today.
Praise the Lord!
We are thankful to the Lord for countless reasons. But today that word is our favorite reason to be thankful.
Summer fun
Emma goes into her bedroom and it will be very quiet for several minutes and then she comes out dressed up. She always surprises me with what combinations she comes up with.
We went to Brookside pool for the first time and Emma loved the baby pool. She really wanted to love the big pool too but she never quite got used to it. We'll go back and try again. She loves water and Jon and I want her to learn to swim at a young age.
She sure did love the time with daddy.
Here's another example of Emma's dress-up concoctions. This included baby clothes, infant socks (which she DID get on!) and snow boots.
And here's me... 30 weeks and counting!
We went to Brookside pool for the first time and Emma loved the baby pool. She really wanted to love the big pool too but she never quite got used to it. We'll go back and try again. She loves water and Jon and I want her to learn to swim at a young age.
She sure did love the time with daddy.
Here's another example of Emma's dress-up concoctions. This included baby clothes, infant socks (which she DID get on!) and snow boots.
And here's me... 30 weeks and counting!
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